# Toxic Inspiration 2024-10-20 04:38 Am I crazy? I wake up extremely early this morning wanting to make a film. I am inspired by a ‘floating camera’ technique, I do not remember where I initially saw it. But the camera moves around a frozen scene, settles on something, then the scene unfreezes and plays out. It would do this on three different scenes of family life. A portrait. I also begin to romanticize the camera as my personal paintbrush, and want to 'scratch' the sensor with my imprint. I was blessed with a Fuji XT3 I could do this with without stressing, but the camera should have some more weight to it to feel substantial. I want to execute a vision with the new background and thoughts I have of life, and do not want to wait for approval to do so. Of course this is only a fantasy and now it being approximately forty minutes after waking, I am fully sober. The gap between my inspiration and execution is too large to give me any kind of artistic satisfaction. Film is always a marathon, a journey of transformation. It is not a reliable way to project the feelings and emotions we feel in our lives, which of course is what Art is used for. It is not a reliable language. At least in my life currently. So why bother. I will continue to write. I have developed much of the world in [[_SITE/Artemis and the Prince|Artemis and the Prince]]. The written word is freeing.