2025-02-17 It’s funny how often my brain decides that it “needs to make a plan.” Like no, the fuck, chill out. This morning I was feeling uncomfortable, my sinus was drying up, my body was sore, and I had a break in my routine (I might be autistic). The solution, then, is to overdrive thinking and research new ways to improve my schedule. *NOT* (Borat Voice.) I had some sense to take some steam, which helped with the dry sinus, which helped with rhythmic breathing, which helped meditate, and helped me realize that the solution is not a biphasic sleep schedule, but to go and lie down for 10 minutes, maybe play some video games, and then get to work. That seems absurd to the hyper rational side of my brain, because video games?! When I’m falling behind on my word count already!?! How dare I?!? But I’m laughing to myself at the absurdity, and remember that life is absurd, and that productivity often requires silly, silly, things.