Is it right to tie your desire for growth to something outside yourself? Looking back, this has been the framework I’ve operated on for a long time. I was growing myself emotionally and financially, because I believed I had a responsibility to another person. Even mostly last year, which had been a time of striking independence for me, I told myself that I was saving money and paying debt so that another thing within me could have a space to exist: ergo, I was building the infrastructure necessary to be an artist, I was building a home for the child within me. The past few months, this child has been learning about life and people, and doing things which the adult would consider reckless (but I think the common person would laugh at the tameness of this ‘reckless’). This was the intention, but now, I am beginning to see a vision re-emerge. But it perhaps is too soon… Should the child want to grow on its own, or should it be tied to something external? https://music.youtube.com/watch?v=hB--GdbcBkc&si=O24s5FMK_OHTntwf