2025-06-18 I sit in the centre of my living room, meditating, and am interrupted by a twisting motion inside me ~ A prayer ~ *Let this outlet be a burning pyre that I cannot deliver to you directly. When it extinguishes, perhaps I will change and become a better person.* *I am furious.* *Your fear and division ruins me and promises only a thousand more cuts.* *It is yours! I have nothing to do with it!* *If you are led to ruin, I will let you will fade. I am losing blood when I burn for you.* *In the faint smoke smell of life I'm sure I will reminiscence about your ghost and my heart will be wrenched from my chest.* *But I build my new life, one brick at a time.* *In it's hearth I will proliferate Trust, Companionship, and Honesty.* *Things I wish you had given me.* *Amen Inshallah Universe-permitting* ![[401747D9-5C58-454E-9A1C-48754926E016_1_201_a.jpeg]] --- You’ll come around. --- Now that the anger has faded, I burst into laughter at the absurdity. Sometimes it feels like we are God’s failure. --- [[2025-06-30]] 10:57 ![[_SITE/Attached/IMG_9597.jpeg]] ---